i’ve lost weight….. apparently

So this is the most current photo of me, it was taken on Sunday when I went back home to celebrate my 33rd birthday.

A few of my family members who haven’t seen me since May commented on how much weight I have lost. As in they were literally in shock at the amount of difference between now & then. And even though I don’t see it or really believe it, it’s always a lovely thing to hear, especially in my overly vunerable & emotionally unstable state.

Who would have guessed huh? That the most effective diet I have ever inadvertently done involved being dumped by the guy I thought I was going to marry, he who couldn’t even be bothered to send me a text on my birthday.

Turns out having your heart broken helps you not only lose faith that there are any decent men out there, but it also helps you lose weight as well.

reboot restart resurrect

As many of you know, I started this blog back in January with all the very best of intentions. I was filled to the brim with drive, determination & fist pumping enthusiasm to finally begin the journey that would eventually end with the three things that seem to have evaded me my whole life – glowing health, insane fitness & weight loss (plus a jaw-dropping body to match).

Unfortunately by March my world had come crashing down around me & it took all my strength to get out of bed every morning, let alone being able to spare any miniscule amount of extra strength I had doing any form of exercise.

And even though it’s still the cold of winter here in Melbourne, & I may work ridiculously long hours & not get home until well after dark, i’m not going to use either as some pathetic excuse to stay at home wrapped up in a blanket watching some addictive reality show on Foxtel. It’s time I stop feeling sorry for myself, time I let the last (nearly) 6 months stop defining who I am as a person & time I got myself back on track.

But in saying that, i’m certainly not going to go in all guns blazing & start signing up at this gym & that yoga studio. Instead i’m going to make myself go for a walk every night, I don’t care if I have to dress up like i’m going on an arctic expedition, i’m determined not to let my constant work related exhaustion or the weather get in my way.

And I know there’s going to be people out there, that will be thinking what the hell she is only walking, but you know what I don’t care, i’m walking, i’ve already started eating better, & for once in my life i’m going to do this properly, no crash dieting, no starving myself, no giving up after 2 weeks of signing on for a 12 month gym membership.

It all begins now, & i’m going to need all the strength, determination, support, motivation, willpower, resolve & perseverance I can possibly muster.

starting tonight

I came across this on Tumblr today & I could not get over how incredibly apt it is, because tonight is actually my first proper night in my new apartment.

Today I handed back the keys to the other house, the one filled with pain, lies & heartbreak. And as I drove away I actually found myself smiling, because as of 12:45 this afternoon, I no longer have any attachment to the past & what happened there, i’ve moved on in every sense of the word.

It’s like a whole new exciting chapter started today & I simply cannot wait to experience all that is wonderful, amazing & breathtakingly awesome about the life ahead of me.